(Ft Linkin Park)

As I fall deeper into a manic state

I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict traits

Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate

I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil then I salivate

Start off with the night well like, I think I'll just have a taste

Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate

To a harder prescription drug called Valium like, yeah that's great

I go to just take one and I end up like having eight

Now I need something in my stomach 'cause I haven't ate

Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak

And you'd think that with all I have at stake

Look at my daughter's face, mommy, something is wrong with dad, I think

He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me

Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me

And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos

And he just fell asleep in his car eating Three Musketeers in the rear seat

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more than any time before

I have no options left again

Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer

That's the devil in my ear, I been sober a fucking year

And that fucker still talks to me, he's all I can fucking hear

Marshall, come on, we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers

And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed

For half of the time, who's the mastermind behind that little line

With that kind of rationale, man, I got half a mind

To have another half of glass of wine, sound asinine

Yeah, I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol

Ouch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall

I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncy ball

Shit must've knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all

Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I

Man, fuck am I hangover and goddamn I

Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can't I

All systems ready for takeoff, please stand by

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more than any time before

I have no options left again

Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know

Feels like I been down this road before

So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu

I wanna get away from this place I do

But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie

'Cause I don't and why I just don't know

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I'll paint it on the walls

'Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends

I'll paint it on the walls

'Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends